Overly emotional

My 4yo son is a very very emotional child. I am not sure where he got is from. He has always been very emotional since he learned how to communicate. He gets upset at little stuff such as, learning, reading, picking up toys, not being understood ect. He doesn’t whine and he listens very well for the most part. I can tell already he is going to be a very well rounded, tender person with a kind heart.Stressers in his life would be his father being in and out of his life (my ex), and having a 1 year old sister who he adores; but like any 4yo older brother is bossy towards her.He lives with my husband, little sister and I. My husband absolutely loves him and treats him as his own flesh and blood.Right now my son is a little behind on speech and reading, we are trying everyday to help him improve. Instead of saying “green” he says “reen”, instead of “love” he says “wuv”, his S sounds have a lisp, and he tries shorting sentences such as instead of say “can i have a corn dog” he says “me want orndog” and so on. We find ourselves correcting him almost every sentence, but it doesn’t stick to him for the future.He gets very emotional when I sit him down and correct his speech, to the point where he is sobbing and I can’t understand him even more. When he gets to that point I tell him to calm down, take a deep breath and wipe his tears. He does that and we start over but it becomes a never ending loop to the point where he says its too hard. I explain to him he needs to learn before he gets to school so he can make friends with the teachers and other kids.Yes i’ve been looking into speech therapy but I live in a very small town with too many people, where all of the referrals are full or; a place doesn’t take medicaid.I am at wits end. I feel like a terrible mother. I have terrible anxiety sometimes and I constantly ask myself in tears. “what did i do wrong?”. My husband hates when I talk to myself like this because he tells me I’m a wonderful mother. I feel like I’ve failed my son at the most basic thing in life.I am desperate need of assurance, resources, books, videos. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3csWNpo