Gender disappointment - I'm sad it's a boy and feel like a jerk

Hello all dear parents in the parenting club. I'm a new father - or will be in 23 weeks. We had been talking about how excited we were to have a child and for some reason we thought it was going to be a girl. Girls ran in her family and mine, and my partner already has a toddler, so we're both very comfortable raising girls. I have no experience with little boys, except for finding them annoying as hell. I'm not sure why I have this aversion, except that I do not get along with my own brother or father.But I just found out it's a boy, and I am not happy, and I feel like an asshole for not feeling happy. Some people would give the world to have any child. But I'm not some people. I'm me, and I have my own issues that I really need to work out. I am seeing a therapist and he's saying it's normal to feel this way, and that I can raise a "woke" little boy who respects women, is still masculine, and is an awesome and respectful human. I will do this, I will be a great parent. But still, I find myself disturbed that it's a boy and I wish I knew why.Would you offer any anecdotes or advice for this issue of gender disappointment? Has anyone felt this way about the sex of their child? I'm reading that this is normal to feel this way, but I never thought I would care about the sex until now. Thank you. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3vE8UXn