Evening all,I'm wondering if this is normal and if other parents have had similar issues or supportI have a new daughter a few weeks old and I work in an emergency service in England. Like most newborns she sucks huge balls at sleeping and even though me and mum take it in turns to sleep, we are still sleep deprived as hell, especially as she is breastfed and too early to express so I can feed.As the sleep deprivation gets worse I've been finding the traumas of my work starting to surface more, where previously they had not affected me. I've been present for things like a mass killing, child murders, people burning alive in front of me, several suicides etc and I've had no issues with it.Now that the sleep deprivation Is there I'm finding my fight or flight reflex is getting set off very easily by the slightest things, I'm getting upset or angry at the child irrationally when she is difficult.The previous traumas themselves don't repeat on me in the classic early PTSD sense, but It feels like maybe my brain has just been put through some hidden hurt that's it's now feeling as an accumulation of so many little traumas. I've heard before that people aren't equipped to feel and deal with life or death adrenaline more than a few times in life, and for people like me it's an every day occurance.Ultimately to stop this being a ramble, what I'm asking is have other dad's had this early parenting period unearth some shit inside them, and does it go away?For clarification I have no thoughts of self harm and I am aware and can/will access professional support services as needed. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3u3RLWw
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