Choice to send my 5 y/o twin boys to school or let them stay home is difficult.

I have been a full-time stay at home mom since my twins were born. I’ve been dreaming of the start of kindergarten for so long. The thought of doing something with my life and having my own income was extremely important to me. Then Covid hit. I had plans to finish school online and get a part-time job they started kindergarten. My classes start late August. If I decide to keep my boys home I will also have to withdraw from my classes and I won’t be able to work.. . . thinking about sending them to school makes me feel like a bad parent. Keeping them home would also make me feel like a bad parent. My kids have a speech delay and socializing would be very beneficial for them. They really want to go back to school. It is extremely hard to get my boys to sit at the table and do homework for 20-30 minutes. They complain and won’t sit still. The school requires the kids to be online doing the assessments and meetings 5 1/2 hours a day. I can’t even get them to sit down for 30 minutes. I am stressed out every day. I can only imagine the amount of stress I am going to be dealing with if I keep them home and force them to work online for 5 hours. I don’t know what to do. When schools closed because of covid the twins received speech classes on Zoom for 25 minutes a day. It was hard for their teacher to get through with the sessions and they were often cut short.I really don’t want to send them to school because of Covid. What if they get sick and gets someone else sick? I don’t know what do do. The school is very strict on a virtual learning. They have to be online for five hours a day. If they can’t keep up with their assignments, if they are not online daily, at the same time daily, for hours - then they will have to go to school the traditional way.My kids father wants me to keep them home. He’s a truck driver and he’s not home everyday. Only 4 days a week. He also knows how stressed I get with the boys on a daily basis. I’m sprouting a ton of grays and I’m only in my 20’s. I don’t want to send them to school and he starts to resent me for it. If I keep them home I am going to have to fuss and force them to learn for hours at a time on a computer. I’ve never been able to get through 30 minutes.What would you do in this situation? What are you doing in this situation? Is there anything I can do to make them sit down for a long period of time? via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/39e1fF5