I’m scared I might be harmful to my daughters.

They’re (4 and 6) both sad that we don’t live in the same house anymore. My youngest tells me she misses my old hose and wants to go back to it. I had to sell it due to the divorce and unemployment. She was a little over 2 a when the divorce was happening. It’s amazing how it’s burned into her memory.My parents are very toxic and crazy and I’ve been stern with what they do when the girls are here. My older has told my ex-wife that Nana and PawPaw fight and yell and say bad words. She now goes to therapy because she’s got separation anxiety. The past week or so has bit me hard. Like abnormally so.They were in the backseat of my car and the older was putting her plastic water cup with a plastic screw lid and plastic straw in my younger’s space. She broke the straw. I’m not sure if it was on purpose but I always try to tell them that there are things they have to try not to do. My older started crying. I got the story about the straw and helped them talk it out. When I said we have other straws, she said that that was the only one they had and that it was special to her because she got it for Christmas. That breaks my heart. I’m fighting back tears to write this.It happened later that day again. My older had a new play set that she had been enjoying but when she stopped I let my younger play. The older came back shrieking that we leave her stuff alone. I helped the girls talk to each other and get some compromises. My older noticed that a piece was missing (headboard of a bed) and immediately was crying and blaming the younger. I still have no idea where the piece is but this is another time I’ve felt so bad at hearing her sentimentality. She got that for Christmas too. My older crying and dealing with sentimentality like this has broken me up again. The things she likes mean more than the obvious. There is sentimentality behind it all. It just don’t know how I can help her with it because it sends me spiraling as well. I love these girls madly. They’re the only reason I’m still alive. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3pysp0P