I regret having my children and I don’t like them.

I have 2 kids and am married. My first was unplanned and my second was planned. I regret having my children. If I had the option to undo it all, I would. I love my kids. I truly do and I’d do anything for them, but I wish they weren’t here. I want my childless life back. I want my carefree life back. There have been so many days where I’ve looked at my children and thought to myself, “I wish you weren’t here”. I’m also dealing with PPD and that doesn’t help the situation. I’m on medication and in therapy but that doesn’t change how I feel about my children. I wish things were different. I don’t feel like a mother. I feel like a caregiver who is just doing what’s necessary but doesn’t actually like their job. This pandemic and my financial situation hasn’t made it any easier. It’s one thing to be a mom and not like it. But to not like being a mom, on top of not getting out much and barely being able to afford anything, even food. It makes it 10x worse. Oh how I wish I could turn back time. It feels so good to let this out though. I needed it. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2ULfcqS