Struggling SAHM…

I’ll try to make this as short as possible, but I’m 22 and my pregnancy has changed my life for the better and also for the worst. And I could use some help. Here’s how:My pregnancy was traumatic, my doctors ignored my pleas for help and at one point one told me they found pre-cancerous cells in my cervix and threw a cancer pamphlet at me and called it good. It’s been months since. I also was in active back labor for 5 days, couldn’t sleep from pain, and I had to beg on my knees in tears for the c-section that saved me from the horror (no this isn’t asking medical advice I swear, just throwing my experience out there). Mind you, this was all during the pandemic so it was extremely lonely and scary.When my daughter was born in January, I was relieved the pain was gone and that she was healthy. Everything was great, until it wasn’t. She stopped sleeping during the day, my friends stopped wanting to be around me, and I couldn’t find work or afford daycare. So I’m currently a stay-at-home-mom. I was excited initially. But dozens and dozens of mental breakdowns later, I’ve lost my will and drive. I only speak to my bf (23m) when he gets home from work late at night (mind you he works shifts that make it impossible for him to help me care for our daughter) and I’m lucky if I get 2 hours of me-time total in a day.I’ve suffered with depression and BPD for as long as I can remember. It used to be an issue, but I got through it. Now it’s back and full of rage, and I feel trapped and stuck. No where will hire me, and the one place I got a job at fired me on day 2 for responding to a text regarding my daughter (who was at a babysitter for the first time ever) after the hiring manager told me they are family friendly and allowed me to respond to things regarding my child.I cry every day, every little thing causes me rage, and I’m the sole person caring for my child 90% of the time. My doctors don’t give a rats ass about me since it’s past my 6 week postpartum checkup.In short, how do any other stay at home parents deal with the never ending cycles of depression, a child who won’t sleep, personal lack of sleep, and/or complete lack of funds?Side note: I can’t go anywhere because my car is not safe for travel and I can’t afford to fix or get a new one. We currently share one vehicle.Side note pt2: I saved up money to finally start doing my artwork again digitally and hopefully I can make money selling or even finally have interest in something again! So that’s a plus. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3emYODL