Failing, depressed first time Father.

Struggling as a first time father. Been wanting a baby boy for as long as I can remember. Didn't have my father in my life so I've been looking forward to being the dad to my son that I never had.It's been 7 weeks since he was born and so far I feel like I'm failing him as a father. He barely sleeps, suffers from reflux and is just impossible to calm down when he's sleepy and overtired. I barely get any sleep myself, maybe 3-4 hours if I'm lucky.I struggle to calm him down when he's having his tantrums and in turn struggle to keep my composure and patience in check. I get angry with his nonstop screams and super frustrated to the point I just hand him off to his mother. I catch myself being more aggressive with how I handle him as times out of pure frustration. I feel like complete shit afterwards for not being as gentle as I always am with him. Feel like shit for letting my emotions get the best of me.He's not even 2 months old and I already feel like I've been a terrible father to him. I'm afraid that my anger and how I've treated him in these moments will scare him away from me. I via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/3jTVvGg