Feeling alone and isolated

I am a first time mom to my 7.5 month old daughter. In the beginning things were great. Everyone was checking up on me, wanting to see the baby (with proper COVID precautions, of course), and making sure I was doing ok. My husband got 3 weeks off for paternity leave. After the 3 weeks, no one checked in with me any more. No one seemed to care even though I was spiralling. My husband made my pregnancy and PP recovery absolute hell.Months went by and I saw my friends sometimes. We all are vaccinated against COVID and they also have children. However, all my friends don’t talk to me anymore. They don’t return my texts. They don’t invite me anywhere even though they’re going camping and on trips out of state with each other. They’re having fires (in a fire pit) and BBQing and having play dates. But they don’t even respond to me. I can’t figure out if I did something wrong or not. I guess I have FOMO but I’ve been friends with these people for 7 years and after I had my daughter, we no longer talk. Again, they too have kids. A few also have babies.The only human contact outside of my daughter I’ve had in a very long time is my husband (rarely because he works 70+ hours a week), my mom sometimes (but she works graveyard so she doesn’t come over often), and his parents on a rare occasion (his mom is toxic, so it’s hard). I’m usually alone with my daughter for 12-16 hours a day. I feel like a single parent with a roommate who sometimes is around and maybe helps with my kid while complaining about it most of the time.I’m so utterly alone. I’m an extrovert, so it’s hurting me harder and this pandemic is making it worse. I can’t go to stores with my daughter because I live in Texas and Delta is surging as well RSV. I can’t take her outside often because it is 90°F+ every day with humidity levels above 60%.I tried the Peanut app to make mom friends but no one talks there longer than a couple days.I told my husband I am very sad and he ignored me. I told him I feel like a single parent and he ignored me. I’m so depressed. I’m on anti-depressants but idk if they’re working.I am an EMT and I want to go back to work so bad, but we decided I’d go back in March of 2022. I miss my career. I’m a career person. Career oriented. I love my daughter, but I also need to work again.I miss people. I miss human interaction.How do you cope? Any suggestions on how I can cope? We are planning on moving to Michigan in a few years to live near my best friend. But that’s far off and I’m still so alone now. I have no one to talk to about these feelings who will understand.Everyone is only caring about his mental health because he went to a behavioural hospital in April for 4 days. I can’t do that even if I wanted to (sometimes I do), because my daughter relies on me.Thanks. via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/37IQuKP