My friends not being honest about how it is like having a newborn ?

I mean i gave birth 4 months ago and for the first 3 months wanted to kill myself lol like it was so hard , my baby had also colic and would cry alot! Sleeples nights anxiety etc. But when i reach out to my friends who also just gave birth to their first child they are like : i dont know why you find it so hard? We are fine we are cathcing routine and stuff and i feel like a moron ! I mean they are not like my close friends but such biches i feel like shit like really is it just my baby this hard? I also have ppd a ppa so when i hear from them like they sound like it is so easy to have a newborn! I have another friend who is crazy lool and she feel just like me! I think that the other 2 are not being honest? Or maybe i am a bad mother? I dont know hearing from them makes me kinda sad that i went through hell with my baby via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/2XQOBdH