My husband says I've spoiled and emotionally ruined my 4yo (and will do the same to my 21mo), which is exactly what I was trying not to do, as I am an emotional wreck. I've had an emotionally fucked up life, and didn't want that for my daughter. But I think he's right, I've only taught her to be overly sensitive like me. I'm no good as a wife. I don't cook, I only work part time, I don't have any hobbies besides using my phone when I'm at home. I don't Know how to cook or have any interest. My husband works from home full time, takes care of the kids, and cooks. He does the groceries too. I do laundry and clean up sometimes. I've tried to change and lots of therapy but I'm still useless. My husband is obviously the better parent, and he's completely had it with me. I don't want to be involved in raising my kids because I know I'm not good at it. I google everything and ask reddit and read articles because I have no idea what I'm doing in terms of parenting. My husband hates that I have no thoughts if my own. I know he's right. He's kept me happier than I could have ever dreamed, for the past decade. But I've become a burden and he can't stand any longer being with a partner who doesn't do enough or isn't smart enough.So, my options are, live, and be miserable, be alone and see my girls sometimes and always remember how I fucked up my perfect marriage and perfect life by being good for nothingOr,Die, and allow my very capable husband go raise my kids, along with all 4 grandparents who have always been very active and involved in the girls lives.Everyone will say oh, you're they're mother, nothing can replace that, yadda yadda. Thing is there is absolutely nothing, and I mean nothing, that I can or do provide for them, that their dad and 4 grandparents can't. Nothing at all. Both kids obviously love their dad more, he's more fun, more smart, and just better in every way.I know I'm gonna regret posting this because people will tell me not to, and also my husband will somehow find this and see that once again, I have no back bone of my own, and have seeked reddit for help.I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me or upset with him so I will disclose the following. Back in March I cyber cheated on him. My husband an I made up and went through a honeymoon period. I'm not gonna bother explaining or justifying the cheating. It was 100% my fault. I hope now people can see how much I really need to stop existing.Edit: I cross posted to r/Relationship_Advicehttps://https://ift.tt/3whkWql via /r/Parenting https://ift.tt/35bRJAW
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